Weary but Hopeful
Today started very early for me, being awake in mind before the sun kissed the sky. I was inclined to update my Twitter and Facebook and then drifted back into sleep as quickly and easily as I had woke up. I guess you could say something or someone else was willing me to do those things, because once I was completely awake (2-hours later); I found myself reviewing my updates and posts as if I were looking at the work of a stranger. This isn't the first time this has happened but it's the first time it made an existential impact on the impending time to come in my day.
First, things first... This was my Facebook mantra for the day...
"Today I will think before I speak and not allow the enemy to control my actions. -Marisa Moments
*"Be the Change You Wish to See in the World" - Mahatma Gandhi*"
Why didn't I take heed to my own words?!!!!!! As soon as I had officially woke-up it was as if the enemy had aligned my actions to lead my heart into such a dark spiral of uncertainty and hurt that before I could take pause to assess the situation... I had already taken action on two people that have resuscitated me in my darkest hours. It was through them that I found a strong part of my voice and became comfortable with my quirky ways. They had done nothing that would illicit my overreaction under normal circumstances, but again... I hadn't taken pause to discern what was happening in the moment.
The enemy uses haste to carry out his agenda.
I'm not suggesting that we dwell on things (with the exception of meditation)
I'm suggesting that we must THINK before taking action.
This won't stop us from making false steps, but it will lessen its likelihood.
This journey has been strenuous, daunting, joyous, enlightening, burdensome, confusing, exhilarating and most other words you can think of to express emotions. I find myself struggling on a regular basis to not break under the weight of my gifts. Alas, I find reassurance in knowing that HE does not make any mistakes and I would not have been chosen if I was not capable of seeing things through. However, I am only human... I make mistakes, I experience emotional swings, I get weary.
This is a very Weary but Hopeful day, but I rest assured in knowing that this too shall pass.
*Peace and Blessings*
First, things first... This was my Facebook mantra for the day...
"Today I will think before I speak and not allow the enemy to control my actions. -Marisa Moments
*"Be the Change You Wish to See in the World" - Mahatma Gandhi*"
Why didn't I take heed to my own words?!!!!!! As soon as I had officially woke-up it was as if the enemy had aligned my actions to lead my heart into such a dark spiral of uncertainty and hurt that before I could take pause to assess the situation... I had already taken action on two people that have resuscitated me in my darkest hours. It was through them that I found a strong part of my voice and became comfortable with my quirky ways. They had done nothing that would illicit my overreaction under normal circumstances, but again... I hadn't taken pause to discern what was happening in the moment.
The enemy uses haste to carry out his agenda.
I'm not suggesting that we dwell on things (with the exception of meditation)
I'm suggesting that we must THINK before taking action.
This won't stop us from making false steps, but it will lessen its likelihood.
This journey has been strenuous, daunting, joyous, enlightening, burdensome, confusing, exhilarating and most other words you can think of to express emotions. I find myself struggling on a regular basis to not break under the weight of my gifts. Alas, I find reassurance in knowing that HE does not make any mistakes and I would not have been chosen if I was not capable of seeing things through. However, I am only human... I make mistakes, I experience emotional swings, I get weary.
This is a very Weary but Hopeful day, but I rest assured in knowing that this too shall pass.
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| Lord, you know my heart... You know my burdens. I beseech you to show me how to get through the enemy's trap. I am your humble servant and messenger... I live and die for YOU. I call on you in this time of need! -Amen |
Lord, I love you and I trust you... I give this to you.
The enemy will NOT find triumph in me.
-- No weapons formed against me shall prosper... Not mental, physical or emotional. I am a servant of HIS word alone and will NOT fall into the enemy's trap. --The enemy will NOT find triumph in me.
*Peace and Blessings*
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