Let's Be Real

When I began this journey over a year ago, I was so damned confused.  I was seeing strange visions, hearing strange voices, feeling random emotions that took me from one tangent to another in the blink of an eye.  I thought I was mere days from a straight jacket.  I would tell those closest to me about certain experiences, but always held other things back for fear of being judged.  I knew for certain that they would give me the "there-there" look of pity as they rubbed my arm gently and escorted me to the nearest institution.  I couldn't wrap my mind around the fact that these people truly believed that what I was hearing and seeing was true, especially when I would doubt everything myself!  I mean, how in the world could they be so certain that I wasn't insane?

So you know what I did?  I started reading as much as I could about all things clairvoyant, spiritual and all else in between.  Which is pretty amazing since I am a self-proclaimed, non-reader (yes, I just made that phrase up).  I would read about all of these people and their journeys and started to feel like there was even more wrong with me!  PERFECT!  I'm here reading so that I can find understanding, clarity and acceptance; but now I'm just finding myself in last place of some sort of cosmic race towards enlightenment.  So you know what I did?... I internalized my perceived failures.  Whomp, whomp, whomp!  I decided that I had to emulate that which I wished to become because; you have to fake it until you make it, right?

WRONG!

In some instances it is a great idea to follow behind those that we wish to be like.  In that we push ourselves to achieve greater levels of achievement by surrounding ourselves with people that are focused on and are already successful.  However, I'm talking about the whole... I thought I needed to act like a monk because I was on a great journey towards enlightenment and was going to lead those around me in kind.  I stopped cursing (at least in my social media posts); I portrayed myself as if I levitated from one room to the next.  Because that's what enlightened people do; right?!

WRONG!

This journey isn't about copying the next person for the sake of appearing to be someone better than who you think you are.  Nope, it's about finding you and embracing yourself.  It's about loving yourself so much that you begin to recognize yourself in everyone and everything around you.  You don't get there by refraining from profane language; however, if it works for you... Rock on, rock star!   You see, this journey looks different for everyone.  Indeed, we may all have similarities; that is one of the beautiful things that connect us as a people.  However, our paths are all different.  We are all different.  I'm thinking it's about time that we stopped fighting against who we are as individuals because until we take ownership of ourselves, we will never be able to bring about the collective change that we wish to see.

*Peace and Blessings*  

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